Poetry Update // The Cadaverine // Dissertation Progress // River

Term progresses and so does my dissertation. After it’s submitted in January, I’ll share some more of them on here. I’m really proud of most of them – although I’ll be thankful when it’s done…

This week, The Cadaverine published the second instalment of the poems I had accepted back in August. Second Annunciation and Grit can be found here (and the first poem to be published, an excerpt from After Pill Blues, can be found here).

As it’s been a while since I last updated it, I am going to leave you with something. This poem, River, is a dissertation one. I’m currently wrestling with my line count for the dissertation overall, which is not long enough for all the things I’d like to include,  but hopefully this will make it to the final draft.


I am cold, or otherwise engaged.
Thermostatics are essential: I exist

by the temperature. In rock beds I
am not as angry as you think.

I do not want to drown you,
I have seen enough dredgers

and barge hulls. Even fish disturb me,
and they’re mostly water:

their fins change my current.
Where they are I am not. Being liquid

I am always losing myself,
or part of myself, I have trouble

keeping my particles together
without form, although without form

I can run dry for ten years, and yet
after rainfall run again.

I am warm. I am mountain heat
and midge-clouded summers,

I am the sound of boys pissing
under bridges and your dog

doing things he shouldn’t.

doing things he shouldn’t.
In spring I am the water meadows

over the towpath, I am
risk rising quietly through dark mud

underfoot. Give me a name
better than rain percussing the water:

I am I am I am.

UPDATE, MARCH 2015 – the end of River changed in my final submission for the dissertation, and I like the second version better, so I’ve updated the one on here. The edited section is from ‘In spring’ to the end – it originally read ‘And yes, as you say so eloquently // as you stumble into me blindly/ and I gently lift you from the stones // I am, ‘fucking freezing”